almost endings

today we had a sport carnival and there were factions and all that frizzle. i'm in green and i won in hurdles against my best friend ahahah it was just the two of us because another girl didn't want to run, she chickened out i guess. i got really scared before that race but once i did started it was good. the carnival was actually really fun even though ouR BLOODY TEACHER WAS A STANKY HOE AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL HE WAS DOING THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE DAY GOD I HATE HIM SO MUCH HE'S NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO BE OUR TEACHER I UGH HE MAKES EVERYTHING SO UG GG G HHHH HH

i started talking to random year eights which was pretty funny because they were all like "who is this chick what the hell" i mean i would've found it cool if year nines came and talked to me when i was in year eight like ?????? idk i'm probs just being weird but i am A FLAMBOYANT MAN CHILD (remind me not to say that again) and now i'm TIGHT with some year eights hahahahdashdsa

so i have a test on thursday and friday and a thing due tomorrow which i have written 1300 words for but the limit is 1500 and i really can't be bothered to finish that or do anything for that matter, i'm just so tired what the hell it was probably the sports carnival but i have to do things!!!!! i can't be lazy forever!!!!!!!! I HATE PHYSICS

I WOULD WRite more but i honestly just cannot be bothered with anything at the moment
bye
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it's just embarrassing

this morning i went to go get ready for school and as i was leaving the house and got into the car my dad just says "what did you do to your eyebrows? they look disgusting" but in a more asian language, rude sense and that just pulled me in a horrible mood, but the truth is i barely did anything to my eyebrows - not even pluck them. just a little filling in and shaping so idek how he noticed it was actually from the night before bc i got home at 9 last night from a party that started at 5pm (i know bahahah) which was a shared birthday party between these two lovely boys.

so anyway the party was pretty guuuud, met some new people and ofc i met a boy who i may or may not have a little crush on. but he was pretty set on my friend who we're going to call beyoncé bc we just did a little thing where she's beyoncé and i'm blue ivy and my other friend is jay z (we're cute, i guess). and then i later found out that he was practically flirting with everybody - i mean i don't have a huge crush on him, not like when i first met one of the party hosts. i was infatuated with him for like a week and i don't even know what came over me like wow (let's be honest he's not actually that attractive either) IM SUCH A FLIRT
throughout the party i was just being so awkward and fucking weird and shit and i just got so annoyed with myself -- i knew i wasn't acting normally and all the guys there who i didn't know were like judging me and holy heck but i kept doing it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why do i do that!!!!!!!!!! what is with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i did meet some rly nice ppl
i ended up taking my mates jumper home and i slept in it but he doesn't know that, it smelled really good and i really like his clone it idk it smells gggg

ONCE UPON A TIME SEASON 4

tomorrow is the sport carnival which i'm kind of undecided about tbh
smitten
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post mornings and polaroids

well hi again, i hope you're having a very nice weekend. i'm not really sure if i am but you know, it's only two days. i haven't had breakfast yet but idk if i want to go downstairs and get it hahah

Yesterday i failed at doing anything school related even though i have sososo many things to do and i don't know it's not that i can't do them it's just that i really really cannot be bothered. it took all my mental effort to practise flute ok

so anyway i have a party/gatho thing today and idk i don't ever do things on the weekend so it was kind of a big deal for me (even though i don't like to admit it) it was a birthday party for two boys that i barely even know really, i was just invited bc they were like "ayy let's invite all the kids that go to that school" (btw the boys are private school boys) ((they were really nice when i first met them)) but like i've only ever encountered them twice and i can't help but think that i was +1'd or something happened to get me onto the guest list. it was just strange for me and i just overthink everything.

sso i'm getting one of the boys spud 2 bc he hasn't seen it and he likes it bc the girls in the movie (i like it bc the boys.. oops) and the other boy $15 bc i barely even know the kid and idk what to get him???????????? they wanted money for their birthdays anyway. i'm also wearing a vampire weekend with black pants and shoes idk what jumper though and if it's cancelled or not because it's raining/storming even when yesterday had really really nice weather.

so the poiint i was really trying to get at was the fact that i'm not going to one of my really good friends' (let's call him lemon) house to get ready. It's not that i don't like toast because i really love him and he's funny and cool but i just don't want to get ready with like all these other people that i knew who i liked but idk i would've felt weird and iDK IDK IDK so i'm getting ready and my other friends (let's call her noodles)

i'm so strange and stupid and ugh i hate myself so much

the refridge

real clichés and stuff like that

heyhehyehyehy well this is my blog that i'm probably going to use for my own personal benefit in venting and just saying how i feel because writing down in a diary hurts my hand and my diary is almost empty anyway, so lmao.

so for my own privacy reasons and so that no one i actually know finds this blog i'm going to call myself the refridge and my friends other kitchen appliances, because it was the first thing i could come up with in the short period of time i had to actually decide that i would start a blog. in a way i kind of feel like jenna hamilton from awkward (which by the way is coming back in 3 days, pretty excited tbh) where she had her own blog where she told everything she was feeling to just random people on the internet.

well okay, i am refridge. as of today i am fourteen years old, pretty certain i'm straight and too lazy to deal with grammar. i have two dogs called pepper and eden, pepper is the male. i'm really short and have really bad anxiety issues which i don't even know i actually have since i've never been to a psychiatrist or the school nurse of the doctors in like seven years. i go to a school that is 12 years away from where i live, and as a result of that it's hard for me to make plans with my friends to go places because they're either like "lmao no i'm not going all the way to your house" or "nah she lives too far away she won't come" so that's a celery stick

 um yeah
stay phre$h
the refridge